Healing From Writing

Since my spiritual awakening almost two years ago, I was told by four medium friends to write. “Write in a journal”, “do some free writing”, and “write your own story”, were all phrases they shouted out to me, but I didn’t listen or better yet I didn’t want to listen. I never saw the benefit and felt it was boring and tedious. One day my friend Judy felt prompted to tell me a story about her friend who had been told to write many times but didn’t listen either. Her friend was injured in a car accident and broke both her ankles and it was then, with no place to go, she started to write. I knew that Spirit was speaking to me and by “accident” I picked up a book about writing your own spiritual autobiography from a local bookstore.

I sat down and started writing my story; of a childhood with severe abuse and a knowing that I had gifts I couldn’t explain – gifts I thought were demonic in some way. I felt I had the misfortune to be born into a family of hate and inherited a crazy unstable mind that was being controlled by evil spirits and I was terrified all the time, so much so that I developed an ulcer at the age of ten. Through my writings, I would get flashes of insight and I began to understand that the gift of knowing wasn’t a curse but rather what had saved me from deep depression and thoughts of death and suicide. Having psychic experiences lent me to believe that God and his angels were perhaps watching over me and it gave me hope to keep going instead of giving up.

As my story unfolded before my eyes, I began to look at things differently. All the ironic and poignant times one has in life led to an awareness of lessons I had come here to learn. I confessed I had much disillusionment in my mind and I marveled at how everything I thought was right was wrong and everything I thought was wrong was right. I saw how the shame and humiliation that one feels when abused had affected my relationships and choices in life because I was afraid to let people see who I really was for fear of rejection and pity, myself included. I encouraged my insecurities with anger and bitterness at parents who didn’t have the ability to love me. Somewhere along the line, it had become my identity and my crutch and I hid my flawed self from the world. My breakthrough into who I really am has set me on a course to help others who have also had life altering, horrific experiences and I now see the true beauty and purpose of my life. I thank Judy, Denise, Nadine and Barb for not listening to my excuses for not writing and for having their own convictions to convey the message to me over and over again.

I urge all of you come out from the shadows and start writing. You don’t have to produce a book or a manuscript to reap the benefits. Let the words take you wherever they will and over time I hope you can see how your higher self as well as guides are speaking to you. Allow your readings with mediums and psychics to be your treasure map rather than your solution and lean into the pain and joy of your own truth so you can begin to write your own positive story of a happy future full of good intentions and love.

Laurie Stinson is a psychic/medium/Reiki healer/seer living in Minnesota. She is currently finishing a book entitled My Soul’s Journey, The Blessings of Abuse. LStin19@gmail.com